sitting outside with my art

I am so tired and I can only call it trauma revisited -- it just keeps coming back and I feel the wear and tear and it shows on my face so I hid in the special effects of photo booth -- I have some of my sculptures and mannequins outside for now and the rest of my canvases are rolled up.  You can visit  http://suzannahbtroyart.blogspot.com/2008/01/my-art-east-village-plus-dylan-photo.html  (this is from Jan. and has the 6ft by 6ft painting everyone loves that might be one of my best ever.  There are a lot of photos of my art being readied to be packed up.   Look in the Jan.  archive to seem some of my really large canvases at my ex-loft space of 20 years but for now they are rolled up.   I am so tired and freaked out.

Other blogs picked up the photos from my ex. place with my art.

or to see the body of my art for the last almost 40 years www.suzannahbtroyartist.com

You can see Adam techno-head, head is right over my shoulder and to the right is a pink canvas stretched over chicken wire that was part of canvas off the wall series from over 25 years ago.

I also had to lug some art and poetry that was done to protect myself and an attempt via art to help heal a baddie (didn't work) who is finally paying for his cruel deeds, finally -- I don't do anything to get revenge but I do wonder if justice will be served and karma did better than anything I could have dreamed up and I hope that more karma is served to others that have done terrible wrongs.  I know I should not think of this and focus on everything good and there is plenty to focus on.

I am a wild artist yet I have never done drugs.   I have never even tried pot.  People are always surprised.   I have always done a lot to help other people big time, and kids, and pets and you name it.  

Some  people have done very uncool things to me and I gave them chances to make good and they didn't and it seems over and over either in the news or it is a telephone call updating me as in karma served...sometimes it takes years....

Before the //// hit the fan I was doing a press junket for my yoga teacher on fun yoga to look younger celebrating her book "Yoga Face" and now I feel just aged.  I have to rest and keep the faith and I won't jump up and celebrate when Karma is served but I ask everyone and everyone agrees what goes around comes around.  It doesn't happen in the time frame we want and or how we want and sometimes karma is way more effective.

Today working on moving art and getting so much out of storage and in my home stirred things up.  Some people that know me, know the big karma news that has been in the news and that upsets me even though karma did a better job than I ever could, and the fact I am missing many things is upsetting.  I still have to get boxes shipped back to me from my parents but I don't think they contain what is missing.

Must let go, I know, everyone tells me that as well and move forward.  Focus on everything positive, attitude of gratitude.  

Too tired have to rest...