oliver stone dream

I know I saw a moment of Born on the Fourth of July last night as I searched the many new tv stations I now have but for some reason Oliver Stone was in my dream yet again...he keeps popping up in my dreams from time to time...the Viet Nam films for me were the best and he was ground breaking with talking about Viet Nam and even Wall St. He does pick hot topics but I have not seen a film post the Viet Nam series that talked to me or that I could say I enjoyed. I felt there were huge problems in his other films but when he appears in my dreams I feel it is about me keeping my unconventional self passion alive...

I remember reading Oliver had sold Platoon and than fought tooth and nail to get Platoon back so he could make the film. He did and he touched so many peoples' lives. I had never seen his films but was doing lowely work on his film Wall Street so I went on a weekend and saw Platoon. I remember a really rude guy was talking but the film was so gripping he shut up and I cried. What a moving film.

I am feeling really bad tonight...moving is traumatic, so confused about the things that seemed to have just vanished and I don't want my art delivered Monday but would rather leave to find a real home that truly suits me.

I was flipping the channels tonight. Don't like it, so many channels but nothing to really focus on and absorb.
I saw Kellie Pickler from American Idol fame visiting the troops in Iraq and again I felt so badly for our soldiers and it showed their living conditions, the danger, the struggle of the Iraqi people to just live and you get a feel for how much the soldiers miss loved ones and visa versa. Just feel for them.

I know my upset will pass and soon I will be 46 years old which means I past the half way mark because I refuse to live to 92. I love these amazing communications I have with people, sometimes even strangers and the beauty of nature but I will never miss the selfish destructive behavior of people and they pollute with their behavior. Death is peace and it is sad to leave love ones behind and have them miss you. Sad.


I refuse to see Stone's 9-11 film. I may never see another film of his again but he my dream he symbolized something positive from the Viet Nam film making era.
Just oddly comforted to see Oliver in my dream...