Tina Negron's poem/Violence towards women in it's many forms in the public forum aka the streets, lobbies, workplace of NYC

I read an article on the capture of Tina Negron's murderer and in the article words that I had written about violence towards women, the words were like the words I had written on this blog almost quoted verbatim it seemed to me.

I was glad because I have lived it and endured it but I am alive. It was not any ex-boyfriends. My theory is what I was forced to endure was an attempt to silence me. Not the ultimate silencer which is death because here I am alive writing to you.

I was glad to read words I had written as if someone had read them directly from my writing here on this blog. The message has to get out. I read Tina Negron's poem and she was right on.

Tina Negron's poem

“I see souls being lost because young brothers and sisters don’t know how to act,”
“I see the whole world coming to an end. I see me dying, but me fighting, on what’s on my mind, is trying to be, and that is really a message to you.”


I had contacted as many people as possible about violence towards women and the need for change including writing a book review on Amazon.com for "Secrets Can Be Murder" by Jane Velez-Mitchell and I contacted her directly and emailed Commissioner Kelly. I went to the 9th Precinct's community meeting and spoke up about the fact that nobody should die the way Imette St. Guillen died. The commander of my precinct was respectful and he inspired me to write up ideas which I handed in and I felt the precinct community meeting was the only meeting where I was heard. When every where else I was shut down because they feared I wanted their jobs -- that I want to run for political office -- that I am too effective so they shut me down. I wrote many people and also starting emailing Nancy Grace who has an amazing resource list on her website. I also emailed Americas Most Wanted on several issues and thanked them for their fine work that lead to the capture of Tina Negron's murderer.

But through this blog it is clear my words are being read, even repeated although I am not credited and better my thoughts are repeated. I lived it and it was not any ex-boyfriends but it was clear to me there was an attempt to control me and most of all silence me --- very painful topic, very traumatic and it is close to home for me even though I am moving, close to home.

+Also note I will not mention the paper where I read this because they were part of the "silencers" fearful I was to effective reaching the community and erased me -- my speech which people still praise me for at the Whole Earth Bakery and Kitchen" rally where I praised the community -- I told them Filomena Silvestri died at 94 knowing we fought for her and we won a small victory -- an extension and she died knowing her business was not going to be thrown out on the street evicted! You made the difference and that is was makes us a Village and not NYU-ville!!!!! I demanded community outreach resource centers in every mega dorm here in the East Village with scholarships, with computers for people in need, with a table to ask for tutors, with listings of our small businesses but the little newspaper reporter told his editor this --I did not say ANYTHING DIFFERENT THAN ANYONE ELSE! I WAS THE MOST DYNAMIC SPEAKER AT THAT RALLY AND THEY ERASED ME AND FILMONENA, SHE WAS NEVER MENTIONED IN THIS LITTLE NEWSPAPER'S REPORTING ALTHOUGH IT WAS HER BUSINESS AND THAT WAS BECAUSE I WAS THE ONLY ONE TO MENTION HERE AND THEY WANTED NO MENTION OF ME SO WE WERE BOTH ERASED. I confronted the editor and he sent me this.... She did not say anything different from anyone else but in fact I did. The little paper did an obit for Filomena "Vegan Earth Mom" that was because of me hounding the editor and the words "Vegan Earth Mom" were my words that I said use with my blessing. Filomena was a woman visionary, a woman business owner who should have been honored at the rally and she was by me and the loud response when I mentioned her but they wanted my voice silenced so they did not mention me although I spoke powerfully and they did not mention her because I was the only one who spoke of. The reporter I am told said to his editor, Who does she think she? Is she running for political office? The little paper much later ran a piece and included me with the mayor and picked the most unattractive picture of me on purpose but still people know the truth. Other blogs picked up the story. Thank goodness for blogs.

I am not running for political office but I know I make a difference helping people and I didn't need a job in city government to do so. I do want the community boards to have to document each person speaking up and return with this:

1) yes I addressed it - problem solved.
2) No, we did not resolve the issue at the community board level and it was submitted to 311 -- here is the number meaning WE NEED ACCOUNTABILITY. WE NEED TO KNOW WHO REPRESENTS US ON A COMMUNITY BOARD LEVEL because we were not even given the right to VOTE for them!

My theory is the attempt to silence me, shut me up, shut me down was in part sexism -- "She should know her place and they wanted to put me in my place. It happens all the time -- this sexist mentality -- women should know their place and they should shut up and if they refuse they have to deal with a hostile evironment and I am so glad at least one one sued and won big. We should not have to endure hostile environements and be trashed because we dare to speak up. We should be intimidated in our homes, in our workplaces -- we should not be silenced -- we should not be murdered.

It happens all the time and it is not just male on female but it seems mostly so.

I felt I was affective and there was this undercurrent that became no longer "under" with the intent to shut me up. My theory is the attempts to silence me is because I am outspoken and I speak up on many issues including against the number one real estate magnate in this city which is NYU and NYU has a lot of powerful connections and people that want to be close to them, depend on them. I had one NYU employee ask me to stop talking to the press and this person is now gone. I watched NYU build one mega dorm after another from my window and The New School mega dorm all from my window. St. Ann's was the final traumatic tear down I witnessed and NYU is no longer going to be my next door neighbor. I will no longer be situated between NYU and the USPS -- the building on the other side of my home for 20 years.

I have this blog so I can write and writing is part of my art.

Yes, I agree Silence=Violence and their are all kinds of way people attempt to silence women who dare to speak up.
Anyone celebrating attempts at silencing us or the ultimate silence is someone --- take a good look at them...Why are they so happy to silence a powerful voice? Why so compelled to silence us? It seems to me like more women endure bouts of verbal harassment, threats, intimidation, being blamed by the abusers, and ultimately murdered by their abuser -- more die "death by murder" than by death by breast cancer.