9-11 and post 9-11 the tsunami of over the top community crushing development

Yes, I was here for 9-11 and I remember seeing the Tower with the gaping holes and the flames -- and I thought it was a movie, my mind could not provide any other explaination and I remember on 5th Avenue by Washington Square Park people had their car doors open with the radio on and they were crying...I still didn't get it...  I still think it is a bad dream and I will wake up but things continue to be very disturbing.  Firehouses were closed and the remaining ones are living memorials and all the firehouses around my home including my first apt. on Carmine Street all are living memorials because so many firemen died that day. 

9-11 was the largest loss of rescue workers in our nation, city and with in each dept but this fact of history has been made invisible all these years at the WTC site because the mayor is concerned about making them some how special because there were so many heroic deeds that day.  Can you imagine a billionaire concerned about singling out rescue workers and these were people that were highly decorated with in their dept and serving in the military.  Some were treated badly when they returned home from Viet Nam only to die downtown and be erased and to date it is my understanding the mayor refuses these rescue workers their rank on the memorial.  Ask him why.

The cowardly terrorists that I believe are in love with the media attention attempted to commit mass murder, destruction of a world symbol of trade and  to hurt our economy.

What happened instead what a boom of development and gentrification became supersification with more and more tragedies that to me look like terror attacks with rescue workers rushing to the scene like 9-11 some infrastructure, some construction.   I am surprised that DEP has not been had accountable but I guess it will take another horrifying tragedy like the one by Grand Central and that may or may not happen while the mayor is in office but I believe it is inevitable because there was too much zone busting mega builds way too fast with out enough accountablity, with architects happily self certifying etc.

The tsunami of development I rename supersification because gentrification just doesn't cut for me anymore marks the end of the middle class and poor who continue to be displaced and in so many ways I can't even put it all in this paragraph.  For every horror show tragedy like today there are small businesses and people that say enough is enough and leave.  There are people and small businesses being ticketed and they can't afford the tickets, the taxes go up, the Con Ed bill, the food bills, the every kind of bill and they have to leave.  I am lucky to have health insurance and many do not have it.

Just heart breaking....and for me personally there was a horrible situation that want on last year in to this year and was  part of why I sold my home of 20 years under duress.  I did sell in part because of the NYU mega construction mega destruction world record speed build on St. Ann's grave which John Sexton insisted must be torn down for yet another hideous mega dorm.  Life was unlivable and I was worried and I am still worried about infrastructure and environmental concerns related to the supersized megadorm with 900 more students and old NY's infrastructure except for the pipes and Con Ed work that was required in front and around the block but what about where it connects with old New York's infrastructure and this is a concern city wide.  From the windows of  my ex home of 20 years next to what was St. Ann's from 1847, I could see the crane condo- where a piece related to the crane fell unto 3rd Avenue and crushed a taxi cab (between 12 and 13th St.) but everyone survived...people were injured.

So sad --just heard another construction worker did die.  One was 30 years old.  Rest in Peace and prayers for his family and all loved ones hurt by today.

Really drained today, really blue....