Beautiful powerful film -- educational inspiring -- Lotje reminds me of a young Ingrid Bergman but she isn't acting it's her life unfolding as she embraces her beautiful broken brain and her life.
Right now my Mom's brain is deteriorating except for the part that knows what's happening. She's lost all her independence but not her keen intelligence.
I don't know when she will pass but I do know she suffers a lot.
Two weeks ago I rode in the ambulance with her to the emergency room and she seemed as if she was going to pass away into a deep sleep but for some reason today she seems somewhat better.
I'm tried a very gentle removable cast today to encourage help her foot find a more normal position and she asks I keep her walker so I do insight because maybe one day she can stand help herself to stand up.
Why not have hope? Hope certainly gives each day something more doesn't it.
I've started transcendental meditation but this week I have to say I've been off and then on and I fear my brain has been harmed by trauma a violent attack and the severe insomnia PTS experience every day since the attacked me in a half years.
I have to relive would happen to me at the doctors office violent attack lies lies by certain medical staff so every day I have to ask people to watch the video of the attack until they stop line and the NYPD threatened me so I posted police reports proving they lied as a trying get more I'm in court in NY Supreme Court suing the NYPD and Judge K try to pressure me with time and I told her I need time to respond to the city because of my mother's health and because of my own health issues.
My brain so tired... Spelling writing has become so much harder since the attack.
I also fear what happened to my Mom's brain and her body could happen to me especially with the constant PMS for over 3 years yes I constantly relive would happen because Dr. Andrew Fagelman continues to lie along with Delita Hooks and the women in nurse PJs and Zachary Carter Corp Counsrl continue to defend blatant wrong doing by the NYPD and internal affairss. In Federal Court young lawyer hands and police reports The proved her clients are guilty of lying falsifying reports yet Judge Allison never looked at the evidence but referred me to NY State Court when in fact the NYPD broke the law and also violated my constitutional rights it's the truth and she had only looked at the video listened to the audio Delita Hooks false cross complaint and Corp counsels's he police reports the defense handed in by accident but Judge Nathan refused meet with me in the defense counsel and look at the evidence.
The film "My Beautiful Broken Brain" inspired me to return to transcendental meditation I'm known for a while that I need to meditate as much as possible TM but also other meditations give my brain a vacation give my brain a rest I'm afraid the long term post traumatic stress could be harming my brain.
Below an example somehow I had to share and share until I get justice brain has to work over and over what happened until like it justice and thr lies stop the lies and the blame.
My entire body, my face has changed and believe my brain. I wish I'd had a brain picture before the attack enough to be in a half years later.
Several MD's have told me PTS can make contribute to pain one experiences in the body. I have a lot of pain.
And without I know I need to meditate.
The film was truly inspiring specially the optimism and the love of her brother, mother and friends.
PTS spiraling on PTS circling spiraling until I get Justice. I have a lawyer suing MD.
I don't feel well. Wiped out.
Ray Kelly's Appellate Lawyer in front of 3 Judges Aug 21, 2015 admits understandable I feel aggrieved put my constitutional rights were in violated when in fact they were! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dh9TedhfthE&sns=em
Please help go viral to shame MD, my attacker, NYPD, IAB, Cy Vance and ADAs involved thank you.
Vid 6 second highlights Vine
Watch Delita Hooks remove her keys which had already hit me because they would hinder her goal to do a running punch to my left eye -- she made a hole in my retina she violated my patient rights assaulted me repeatedly
https://www.scribd.com/mobile/doc/173385168#fullscreen Delita Hooks false cross complaint I paid 15 dollars to get she walked in 01 Precinct 2 days after me and committed yet another crime. I had to fill out this form and the employee from 1 Police Plaza filled out the bottom paragraph with all of Delita Hooks lies except for 1 she admits she knows I was a patient. The video and police reports prove my attacker and the women in the video lied along with Dr Andrew Fagelman supporting violating my patient rights and my body repeatedly and lying about it.
I find it all really shocking and I guess is people don't understand right and wrong and don't think there's consequences or karma or a higher power that sees all whatever you want to call it.
--has violence, violence and lies at Dr Andrew Fagelmsn's hurt my brain?
See below how I started my day calling 1 Police Plaza and asking a police detective if a doctor and his medical receptionist (receptionist attacked me) lied to the NYPD did they commit a crime? He said if they lied while the investigation was open and yes.
Did Dr Andrew Fagelman commit a crime? Did he participate in a crime? Listen to the new YouTube below recorded -- 1 Police Plaza Det Squad -- yes lying to the NYPD during the course of an investigation is a crime. I asked in the context of being assaulted at the doctor's and let's say the MD and receptionist lie....?
MY GUESS IS DR ANDREW FAGELMAN COMMITED A CRIME WITH THE NYPD WHO AGREED TO THREATEN ME WITH THE FALSE CROSS COMPLAINT.
I AM GOING TO SEND THIS TO CORP COUNSEL THIS AM AND ASK THEM BESIDES HIDING LT AGNES OF THE INTEGRITY BUREAU REAL NAME NYPD LT MICHAEL J. AGNES OF THE INTEGRITY BUREAU IF LAWYERS ARE ALERTED OF CRIMES AS I AM ALERTING CORP COUNSEL RIGHT NOW DO LAWYERS HAVE TO ETHICALLY TAKE ACTION? THE LAWYERS ARE PAID BY TAX PAYER MONEY AND THIS AUDIO PROVES THE NYPD PARTICIPATED IN MORE THAN JUST COERCING ME AND LYING IN POLICE REPORTS.
I believe DR. ANDREW FAGELMAN discussed me with the NYPD and the NYPD said she is a ball buster -- and it was agreed I would be threatened and if with Delita Hooks false cross complaint.
If he didn't know it when my MD Dr Vine told him right after the attack and demanded Delita Hooks be fired he knew it when he saw that video and judging by how many times my yelp review was removed -- I hired lawyers to get my yelp review up he saw that video and never ever went to the NYPD to tell them the truth about the attack but perpetuated the lie in concert with NYPD that wanted to retaliate against me.
NYPD Det John Vergona is facebook friends with Delita Hooks Detective Andy Dwyer (and I am guessing their mutual partners since I don't know their names, faces or badge numbers and just learned what Dwyer and Vergona looked like in Oct 2016 when I was not allowed to serve Det jOhn Vergona at 1 Police Plaza I found a John Vergona married to a Susan Balzan Vergona I believe to be the John Vergona that threatened me and lied to me as well as in police reports.
NYPD Det John Vergona is Facebook friends with NYPO PO Eugene Schatz the first NYPD officer I ever reported to internal affairs for harassing me behaving threatening lying to me and illegal using sirens to harass me and others protesting The Mercer Hotel not far from Dr Andrew Fagelman's where Det John Vergona verbally violently threaten me with false arrest if I didn't drop charges taking Eugene Schatz's abuses to a new level.
Vergona stated he works for the police Dept. It is clear he was retaliating against me along with others.
Note Det Tommy Moran Eugene Schatz's friend and partner is also Det John Vergona's FB friend and I believe privy to retaliation.
Federal Court Judge Allison Nathan refuses my request to meet with me and the defense counsel to watch the video and audios of the NYPD turning me away -- they are not allowed to turn me away prevent me from reporting a crime and they did which is a VIOLATION OF MY CONSTITUTIONAL RIGHTS1
IF JOE TACOPINA SAW THIS VIDEO AND I BELIEVE HE DID AND WROTE HORRIFIC YOUTUBE COMMENTS THREATENING ME CALLING ME CONFRONTATIVE CUNT WARNING ME NOT TO TAKE ACTION OR HE WOULD SEE THE TABLES TURNED BURY ME DESTROY ME -- FORWARDED TO DET JOHN VERGONA HOW DID JUST THAT TURNED THE TABLE ON ME
DID JOE TACOPINA URGE DELITA HOOKS TO THREATEN ME? IF HE GHOST WROTE THE LETTER TO THE NYPD THREATENING ME AND URGED HER TO LIE ABOUT ME TO THE NYPD A CRIME OR CONTINUE TO LIE -- JOE WORKED FOR CHARLES HYNES IS THAT ENOUGH TO ARREST HIM OR DEBAR HIM?
IAB now NYPD Sgt Mary O'Donnell refuses evidence. You are not suppose to refuse evidence.
In first and only meeting prior to this call she read me and showed me Delita Hooks my attacker Dr Andrew Fagelman's letter that I am guessing Joe Tacopina ghost wrote Delita Hooks SIGNED openly threatened me again warning me this time to not come back and file assault charges but
1) IAB NYPD Sgt Mary O'Donnell does not seem to know that it is a crime to threaten the victim and in a signed letter to the NYPD even more serious a crime because Delita Hooks SIGNED it but again the NYPD who have the letter and Internal Affairs cover up this crime and no NYPD and Internal Affairs are punished! Some are allowed to retire and NYPD Sgt Chen is allowed to survive the First precinct Det Squad for 3 years until the day before I serve him they rotate him out AND THE NYPD CONTINUE TO HIDE SGT CHEN'S BADGE NUMBER AND FIRST NAME. The Wheel -- a division that will locate NYPD if you give them a name and badge number says there is more than 1 Sgt Chen so they can't help me and his lawyers CORP COUNSEL YOUR TAX PAYER DOLLARS ARE ASKING HE BE EXCUSED.
2) IA NYPD Sgt O'Donnell and all involved don't seem to realize what (Joe Tacopina my guess and he worked for charles hype) realizes and writes in a letter to the NYPD threatening me which Delita Hooks signs DO NOT COME BACK AND FILE ASSAULT CHARGES AGAIN -- DELITA HOOKS LAWYER RECOGNIZED I COULD DO IT BUT NOT IAB SGT MARY O'DONNELL WHO YOU CAN HERE SAY CASE CLOSED.
THE NYPD RUSHED TO SEAL A SERIES OF CRIMES COMMITTED BY THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE AND IT APPEARS TO ME DR ANDREW FAGELMAN I AM GUESSING HE CONSPIRED WITH THE CORRUPT GUILTY NYPD TO HAVE ME THREATENED.
I WANT TO KNOW WHEN DID DELITA HOOKS GO IN AND FILE THE FALSE CROSS COMPLAINT. WAS IT DURING OFFICE HOURS?
THE WOMEN IN THE VIDEO LIED AS WELL.
AT THE POINT THAT THE MD OFFICE SAW THE VIOLENCE ON VIDEO AND KNEW FOR SURE THEY LIED TO THE NYPD AND STILL DID NO GO BACK TO THE NYPD AND ADMITTED WRONG DONG THERE IS NO DOUBT IN MY MIND THEY COMMITED MORE CRIMES THAN I EVER REALIZED UNTIL TODAY.
NO WONDER THE NYPD RUSHED TO SEAL THIS CASE.
DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES THE NYPD OPENED AND SHUT MY CASE -- 2 POLICE COMMISSIOERS AND 2 HEADS OF INTERNAL AFFAIRS -- BRATTON'S HEAD REZNICK WAS PART OF A LAWSUIT BY AN NYPD WHISTEL BLOEWR THAT CHIEF REZNICK CALLED A RAT. THE HERO NYPD WHISTLE BLOWER WON THE CASE BUT BRATTON LEFT REZNICK IN CHARGE OF INTERNAL AFFAIRS IA.
RAY KELLY IS TRYING TO GET OUT OF RESPONSIBLITY NOW BUT I HAVE A LETTER SIGNED BY HIS LAWYER IN FEDERAL COURT TO JUDGE NATHAN STATING ALL THE DEFENDANTS WANT DET JOHN VERGONA DEFENDED.
DET JOHN VERGONA TOLD ME OVER THE PHONE I DON'T CARE IF YOU HAVE TWO BLACK EYES.
HE REFUSED TO MEET ME BUT THE NYPD WENT TO VISIT DR FAGELMAN'S OFFICE AFTER DELITA HOOKS FILED THE FALSE CROSS COMPLAINT AND MY VIDEO EVIDENCE WAS ALREADY SHOWN TO THE NYPD.
DET JOHN VERGONA YELLED AT ME YOU ARE GOING TO DROP THOSE CHARGES OR I AM GOING TO ARREST YOU.
THE FUTURE WILL BRING AN NYPD APPTRACKER TO REPORT WRONG DOING AND I WOULD BE ABLE TO FIND OTHER VICTIMS OF COERCION.
COERCION IS A CRIME NOT A POLICING TOOL TO LIE AND SAY CRIME IS DOWN AND RETALIATE.
MIKE BLOOMBERG, RAY KELLY, BRATTON, CY VANCE AND HIS DIRTY DAS WHO I HAVE LYING TO ME ON AUDIO --- IS THAT A CRIME TOO -- ANYONE I GAVE HELL FROM MY WHERE NOT DIFFERENT THAN TRUMP WANTING TO PAY FOR A VIOLENT CREEPS ACTIONS LIKE DELITA HOOKS DOES NOT KNOW YOU DON'T HIT PEOPLE BUT WORSE I WAS AT A DOCTOR'S OFFICE MY PATIENT RIGHTS AND MY BODY REPEATEDLY VIOLATED AND I WAS LIED ABOUT AND BLAMED.
THE NYPD AND INTERNAL AFFAIRS IT LOOKS TO ME COMMITTED CRIMES DURING THE INVESTIGATINO OF MY CASE AND PROTECTED PEOPLE WHO COMMITED CRIME INCLUDING DURING THE CASE INCLUDING SOME FROM THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE TO THE NYPD AND INTERNAL AFFAIRS BECAUSE O'DONNELL HAS PLENTY OF SUPERVISORS AND I HAD CONTACTED BOTH CHIEF CAMPISI AND REZNICK WHEN REZNICK TOOK OVER
RON KUBY GOT ME OUT OF A DANGEROUS SITUATION.
THE NYPD COULD HAVE FABRICATED ANOTHER CRIME AND LIED IN EVEN MORE POLICE REPORTS AND SENT ME TO RIKERS FOR 6 MONTHS AS FURTHER RETALIATION FOR MY BLOG, FOR CALLING FOR A NEW COMMISSION IN TO POLICE CORRUPTION AND BLOWING THE WHISTLE ON NYPD CHIEF CHUCK DOWD GRAFT NOT ONLY 911 BUT POSSIBLE FIRSTNET AND HOW BRATTON AND DOWD HOSTED A FIRSTNET BOARD MEETING AT ONE POLICE PLAZA JUST BEFORE FIRSTNET CAME UNDER A FEDERAL INVESTIGATION.....THAT IS WHEN BRATTON PUSHED DOWD OUT BUT LET HIM KEEP HIS PENSION.
THE NYPD RETALIATED AGANST ME AND CLEARLY HATE MY ACTIVISM AND INVESTIGATIVE JOURNALIST WORK AND WANTED TO RETALIATE AGAINST ME SO BADLY THEY ALLOWED EVEN INTERNAL AFFAIRS TO BE INVOLVED IN CRIME.
I contacted Bratton's office and even video taped audio of the calls and Bratton covered up crimes including NYPD Internal Affairs crime. NYPD Inspector General Eure forwarded my case back to Internal Affairs. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=peaWfQ6PtIc listen to my call to Bratton -- just one example. YOU CAN HEAR ME TELL BRATTON'S OFFICE DELITA HOOKS LIED TO THE NYPD. DET JOHN VERGONA COERCED ME.
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