NYU with the help of an illegal air sale by the USPS -- tore down St. Ann's at 120 East 12th Street and I still remember the parishioners crying and praying on the street.
When NYU systematically tore down St. Ann's next door to my home of 20 years, 7 days a week, with constructions workers having a coffee clutch at 6am that sounded more like an open air bar with free booze under my windows to late night construction -- a free pass from the City of New York -- it took a toll. (I had to laugh at two people that took credit -- one Rosie Mendez for getting NYU to quiet down. It never happened and if NYU cut back the late nights it was from me complaining big time but ultimately no one was going to stop NYU from recklessly supersizing in the tear down of yet another historic building. NYU mega dormed the East Village to death and Mike Bloomberg and socialite mega millionaire city planner Amanda -- the peoples' Burden cleared the way for this illegal build like thugs. To date the State of New York has never come in to examine if the air sale by the USPS is in the best interest of the community and that is because the USPS believed just like blocking the fire hydrant outside my now ex-building -- the USPS is above the law...and it looks like the USPS is right except for the fact the USPS has lost aprox 15 billion dollars in the last 3 years...oopsie.
A neighbor that refused to put down any padding to muffle high volumes of noise pollution -- it took a really long time but finally he made a small effort so I could actually get some rest. Can you imagine spending as much money to sound proof as one spends for stereo systems and parties? Also distressing, seeing the fire hydrant out front constantly blocked and there is more to that story that is very disturbing. I wrote a short story called "The Blooders" about the need for blood donations becoming so extreme that just like Mike Bloomberg changing the laws for term limits, laws are changed to keep people prisoners for their blood but there is one problem...unless rested and happy, people can't donate blood.
Harassment of all kinds -- takes a toll on my health, still does...
I can't donate blood if I can't get rest folks. Besides the yells and screams of drunk people exciting bars and screaming ...."Why did I park my car?", the city is just party central yet there are so many families with babies and kids and they too want quiet. Their kids need quiet.
I have lost that feeling of wanting to give. What if someone who was really abusive to me needed my blood cells? No thank you. Giving is a great feeling and I love it but you reach this point where enough is enough. Gee, I wonder if one person who harassed me, robbed me of sleep, threatened me has taken two hours out to donate white blood cells? Gee, I don't think so.
I also started eating meat to help me pass the test to donate blood and now that I have made up my mind to stop donating I want to move back towards vegetarianism.
Someone locally asked me to donate white blood cells to help a girl and I had to say no this time around. Until the harassment stops there will be no donating blood. The city that Mike Bloomberg pushes is a party central city where peace and quiet is not an option. People might say move somewhere quiet. Believe me I think about it all the time.
In this way the selfish abusive people that are not what define as New Yorkers have won. I can't donate blood. I am sure they don't bother with such selfless acts but I just can't do it anymore.
When you give white blood cells it means being perfectly still with a needle in each arm for two hours. At the end I remember my body temperature dropped. It was worth it to help a little girl with Non-Hodgkins disease and a Hispanic male in his twenties with Lymphoma.
I can't donate blood blood anymore. Do the math...
A homeless man told me so and so is sick and I should forgive him. Has he ever apologized to me? So how could I forgive him and besides that he lied and trashed me. I won't be shedding any tears and if so and so needs a blood transfusion it won't be me that is donating.
I am getting acupuncture and I look forward to taking a workshop on healing from trauma in November.
In time I will heal and healing is when it doesn't even register in your mind's eye. For now I find myself returning to pray and praying for justice. I don't spell it all out and share all the details but I find myself returning to pray. I recently discussed it with someone that works for the USPS and he urged me to sue. I continue to just pray. He said "You are a nice person."
I think of karma...in every religion and philosophy there is a belief what goes around comes around. You just have to patient....very patient.
I am proud of how much giving and good deeds I have done.
I am grateful to many people who have shined their love and generosity on me including when I was wrongly banned from YouTube so there is so much positive to focus on.
